Oh, and forgot to say THANKS! : ) we appreciate the comments and intellectual discourse : )
I know the whole idea of "born multiple" is controversial. However, we also experience "born multiple" AND being traumagenic. "Born multiple" does not automatically mean "endogenic" : ) For some reason people have this notion, and it really needs to be debunked.
We have intergenerational & gestational trauma. We were born "ready for trouble" and an unwanted pregnancy, we were looked at as a burden, our mother was probably suffering from postpartum depression once it sunk in that getting pregnant and getting married as a result meant now she was legally tied to an abusive pedophile and dependent on him. We were emotionally neglected almost immediately on birth, on top of the intergenerational & gestational trauma issues.
While yes, we were not "plural" per se in the autonomous headmate sense upon birth, we were self-states that were already arranged to handle panic situations, our brain & body were scrambling to survive an unsafe situation immediately, and our self-states never attempted anything resembling merging by age 5-7 as is generally indicated as a key developmental phase in the books. By then we had developed full-fledged "alter identities" that continued parallel development and differentiation.
Thus we were born multiple/plural and remained multiple/plural to date, with no sign of ever merging, fusing, even in part.
Some folks do go through attempted merging/fusing and fall apart again which leads to a totally different subjective experience of their own plurality. They usually have a sense of there having been a "one person" they were about to become, and they sometimes want to go back to that "one person" they feel they were becoming.
We have no such sense. This is how we've always been, and we don't know what singularity would even look like or feel like.
Oh, and forgot to say THANKS! : ) we appreciate the comments and intellectual discourse : )
I know the whole idea of "born multiple" is controversial. However, we also experience "born multiple" AND being traumagenic. "Born multiple" does not automatically mean "endogenic" : ) For some reason people have this notion, and it really needs to be debunked.
We have intergenerational & gestational trauma. We were born "ready for trouble" and an unwanted pregnancy, we were looked at as a burden, our mother was probably suffering from postpartum depression once it sunk in that getting pregnant and getting married as a result meant now she was legally tied to an abusive pedophile and dependent on him. We were emotionally neglected almost immediately on birth, on top of the intergenerational & gestational trauma issues.
While yes, we were not "plural" per se in the autonomous headmate sense upon birth, we were self-states that were already arranged to handle panic situations, our brain & body were scrambling to survive an unsafe situation immediately, and our self-states never attempted anything resembling merging by age 5-7 as is generally indicated as a key developmental phase in the books. By then we had developed full-fledged "alter identities" that continued parallel development and differentiation.
Thus we were born multiple/plural and remained multiple/plural to date, with no sign of ever merging, fusing, even in part.
Some folks do go through attempted merging/fusing and fall apart again which leads to a totally different subjective experience of their own plurality. They usually have a sense of there having been a "one person" they were about to become, and they sometimes want to go back to that "one person" they feel they were becoming.
We have no such sense. This is how we've always been, and we don't know what singularity would even look like or feel like.