*I have been recently diagnosed and am still struggling to use 'we' so please excuse that*
Derealization seriously has brought me to the brink of sanity- for me, it makes me feel like everything is digital, like I'm living in the matrix. things literally sometimes look a bit pixelated, and i feel like its all been coded and that it isnt 'real'. it doesnt help seeing elon musk and other tech guys talk about how 'its possible that this world is all code and AI blah blah..' or how neurotypical people on the internet constantly joke about this all being the matrix, because sometimes (often times) that is how I genuinely feel. My vision will get blurred too, or things will feel super loud and bright, like everything has been turned up, or like being super hung over almost. If I lay down and look up at a blue sky, I can sometimes literally see pixels in it (obv not real, but thats how the derealization appears for me.)
*I have been recently diagnosed and am still struggling to use 'we' so please excuse that*
Derealization seriously has brought me to the brink of sanity- for me, it makes me feel like everything is digital, like I'm living in the matrix. things literally sometimes look a bit pixelated, and i feel like its all been coded and that it isnt 'real'. it doesnt help seeing elon musk and other tech guys talk about how 'its possible that this world is all code and AI blah blah..' or how neurotypical people on the internet constantly joke about this all being the matrix, because sometimes (often times) that is how I genuinely feel. My vision will get blurred too, or things will feel super loud and bright, like everything has been turned up, or like being super hung over almost. If I lay down and look up at a blue sky, I can sometimes literally see pixels in it (obv not real, but thats how the derealization appears for me.)