A Taste of Multiplicity
by The Crisses
Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), once known as multiple personality disorder, is thought to affect between 1-3% of the population. There's also Other Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD) which shares features with DID.
There are some who theorize that most people have "people in their head" (e.g. Family Systems Theory), but that they are not necessarily experiencing distress or problems from the phenomenon. Being multiple may just be a range of potential human experiences that is much more common than people would like to think. We're told it's rare — but 1-3% is not really all that rare, is it?
So this is a little "experiment" to help you see whether you share even a hint of some experiences that people who are multiple have gone through. I'm not here to say if you have these experiences that you have DID, that's not the point. Often it mystifies "Singlets" (people with one person or identity in their head) how it is that there even can be multiples.
So, all you singlets out there: Do you want a little taste of what it's like to be multiple?
Part I: The Earworm
Have you ever had an "earworm" — you just "can't get a song out of your head"?
Uh, so are you alone in there? or not? Do you have a radio in your brain?
If you have 100% control of your mind, then you shouldn't have a song playing in your head without your express permission. Stop that!
What? You can't?
Welcome to my world.
Did you pretend to have a song playing in your head? Were you making it up? Doing it just for attention? No? Neither were we.
That's a little taste of my world. We've had that "song layer" in our head since we were a kid. Constantly. But along with it, about 8-10 other voices at the same time. Imagine having 10 "earworms": some dialed in on talk radio; some playing music; some giving running commentary of your life like sports announcers; some doing interviews or having on-air conversations. That's what it was like in our head at 10 years old.
Part II: Physically Acting Out of Your Own Volition
Ever have an earworm and find that suddenly you're huming or singing the song in your head without thinking about it?
Ever speak without thinking about what you're about to say?
Are you always in full conscious control of everything you do or say? This is similar to how some multiples have people "take over"....
"Oops, I didn't mean to say that."
"I didn't think about doing X, but I did X anyway...."
Of course for people who are multiples, this can last longer and have broader effects. Holding full conversations, driving places, etc. without it being of your own conscious volition. But that's your taste of what it's like.
Part III: Highway Hypnosis
You drive that same path every day, and one day you're so lost in thought or reverie or daydreaming that suddenly you "come to" full awareness and you're already at your exit.
The question is — if you were so lost in thought that you don't remember driving, then who was driving?
This is the barest hint of the other side of what happens in Part II, in a way. If you didn't say it or do it, intend it or initiate it — then who did? When you don't have conscious control of yourself, what else does?
Please comment below if you've had (or never had) experiences like these. How does this make you feel? Does it help you understand more of what it's like to be multiple?